Thursday, September 16, 2010

What were you like in school?

for the ages of 12-14 I was the smart-ass everybody loved
14-17 I was the elitest who most people shared a dislike for, only had a small circle of friends and no 'allies' outside of that. spent most of my time trolling people irl.
feels sort of okay, but I'm totally forgettable




Elementary school - None of the other girls liked me except one or two girls who I was very close with. About half the guys were cool with me and I had a big circle of male friends.
Middle School - I had a good number of friends, wasn't necessarily popular. The people who didn't like me in elementary school just happened to be in all my elective classes and still picked on me when isolated from all the people who actually did like me.
High School - decently well known mostly for my art work, in all the high level classes, but had friends everywhere and knew at least half of the ~1600 student population. Wouldn't call myself popular, because I still had a limited number of close friends. Only a couple people had issues with me, and most of that came from elitist art student drama.

Elementary school - None of the other girls liked me except one or two girls who I was very close with. About half the guys were cool with me and I had a big circle of male friends.
Middle School - I had a good number of friends, wasn't necessarily popular. The people who didn't like me in elementary school just happened to be in all my elective classes and still picked on me when isolated from all the people who actually did like me.
High School - decently well known mostly for my art work, in all the high level classes, but had friends everywhere and knew at least half of the ~1600 student population. Wouldn't call myself popular, because I still had a limited number of close friends. Only a couple people had issues with me, and most of that came from elitist art student drama.

I f**king hate the dramaf**s. absolute c**ts, all of them.

Elementary school - None of the other girls liked me except one or two girls who I was very close with. About half the guys were cool with me and I had a big circle of male friends.
Middle School - I had a good number of friends, wasn't necessarily popular. The people who didn't like me in elementary school just happened to be in all my elective classes and still picked on me when isolated from all the people who actually did like me.
High School - decently well known mostly for my art work, in all the high level classes, but had friends everywhere and knew at least half of the ~1600 student population. Wouldn't call myself popular, because I still had a limited number of close friends. Only a couple people had issues with me, and most of that came from elitist art student drama.

You sound f**king obnoxious. F**k you random hipster.

uhhh. i slept in highschool... it was OK
no, not because i was totally awesome, i'd just WoW all night ; _ ;

I had 1-2 friends and was a loner besides through all schooling. My last two year at high school were at a new school, where I had no friends, but several aquaintances I was on ok terms with.
Could have been worse. Looking back on it all I remember nothing but a deep seated ambivalence.

So OP was an annoying neckbeard that everyone hated since he was 12. Also, "elitest".

At 13 I was everybody's crush, and the smartest member of the batch, then an elitist snob most people disliked
At 14 I was some antisocial nerd people didn't really care about
At 15 I was more of a normal but shy awkward person who people probably called a lesbian behind their backs
At 16 I was finally 100% normal, inoffensive and forgettable.

K-3: regular kid
4: new school, kids were growing and I didn't, got picked on
5: New school, no one knew, friends with all of my class
6-8: video game/yugioh playing kid, had friends, didn't care about norms
9: Hispanic kid that hanged out with all the redneckish kids and acting like an idiot
10: new school, hated it. People would inky talk to me becuase they knew I was pretty smart, or at least payed attention in class.
11: became friendlier thanks to another friend, had no click, just hanged out with anyone and everyone
12: got lazy, tucked my grades, hand out with weirdos who had my sense of humor, still talked many people.
I was never any cliche. Just dressed in jeans, tshirt, so anyone would talk to me. Felt good.

K-3: regular kid
4: new school, kids were growing and I didn't, got picked on
5: New school, no one knew, friends with all of my class
6-8: video game/yugioh playing kid, had friends, didn't care about norms
9: Hispanic kid that hanged out with all the redneckish kids and acting like an idiot
10: new school, hated it. People would inky talk to me becuase they knew I was pretty smart, or at least payed attention in class.
11: became friendlier thanks to another friend, had no click, just hanged out with anyone and everyone
12: got lazy, tucked my grades, hand out with weirdos who had my sense of humor, still talked many people.
I was never any cliche. Just dressed in jeans, tshirt, so anyone would talk to me. Felt good.

K-3: Hispanic
4: Mexican
5: Hispanic
6-8: Mexican
9: Hispanic Hispanic
10: Mexican
11: Hispanic
12: Mexican

K-3: Class pariah. Went to a private school where the parents "helped" by grading other children's work, they figured out I was smarter than their precious angels and always berated their kids for it.
4th grade: Homeschooled due to not being able to take it anymore.
5th-6th grade: Class pariah again. Girl next door convinced me to go to public school with her, but she'd been making sh*t up about me for months before I ever stepped foot into the classroom. I clung to my academics and was loved by the teacher but hated by the class.
7th-8th grade: Continued to cling to academics, started to realize all the popular kids were dumb....
9th-12th grade: Finally started pretending to be stupid, made loads of friends, and f**ked myself over for a bunch of idiots. Feels bad, man.

Elementary was pretty ok, still got bullied once in a while but nothing really major, had some nice friends from 4th to 7th grade
Middle School sucked, bulled, had some good friends though at least.
High School - Bullied pretty much every day, no friends at all whatsoever, sh*t grades, sh*t life. Just the quiet guy no one liked.
Last year it got better, no one around to bully me, got a long well with other despite not actually making any friends, straight A's. I enjoyed my last year of high school, after that its gone downhill again though.

4-8-Pretty popular.
9-12-getting slowly more and more nerdy
12-15-Pretty popular again
16-18-Introvert, not disliked but not noticed either.

grades 1 to 3
um, not too bad
grades 4 to 5
atheltic, almost a cool kid, entering into a religion which woul dget me ostracized
grade 6, movedm social pariah
Grade 7-9,
Hated, jehovahs witness
grade 10
exited religion forcefully, still hated, adjusting
grade 11
Who cares? never went did a LOT of drugs
grade 12
this grade never happened

kindergarten - normal
first grade - normal
second grade - overachiever, i had the most gold stars
third grade - majority of attention was directed to class, good grades, minimal socializing
fourth and fifth grade - still paid attention in class, good grades, got picked on for being tubby and prefering to wear sweatpants instead of jeans
sixth grade - still paid attention and got good test scores but i stopped doing homework because i didnt see the point in filling out sheets of paper with information i already know, grades suffered, no longer picked on because i just avoided other people
seventh grade - paid attention in class and continued to learn, stopped caring about my actual grades tho, still avoided people
eighth grade - new school, made a few new friends but i also made a normal joke about killing somebody in a history class and the teacher heard me, the school forced me to goto therapy, still aced tests and did little to no homework
ninth grade - attempted to remake my image, stopped wearing sweatpants, went out and bought a bunch of baggy pants and other clothes at pacific sunwear, change in fashion attracted douchey pseudo-friends, stopped caring about fashion, began failing classes when test scores started only counting four about 30% of grade
tenth grade - left high school, got ged, went to college
i didnt particularly enjoy my school life, i had 2 friends in my first school system and 3 friends in my second, most people from my high school seem to remember me even tho i was only there for 1 and a half years and barely remember anybody from it

From kindergarten to 8th grade I was the smart kid who knew about almost anything with the word military stamped on it and from 9th grade on I am the weed smokin hippy everyone loves...

1-6 years old: Normal kid
7-8 years old: Normal but slightly awkward kid, already hanging out with the most popular group (or what would become that). Hell, even with the teachers we got along way better than all the rest though we were the most hyper little sh*ts. 3 of my friends were teacher's kids.
9-12: Started doing gymnastics and football right before I turned 9. (proper football, with a round ball and by using my feet) Became pretty popular, even though I wasn't attractive. I was really f**king smart though.
13-14: Ronery nerdy semi-pro gamer. Yes, it was pretty bad. I got separated from my old friends, I had terrible acne and I was an awkward kid with a terrible hairdresser zo my hair always looked like crap. So ronery. Even though I managed to score a really hot girlfriend... She changed schools and I was ronery again. Waifu gone. Had internetrelationship. I knew I had turned into a very sad clown. Also my dark sense of humor + my nerdy face = YOU'RE A F**KIN PSYCHO MANG

1-6 years old: Normal kid
7-8 years old: Normal but slightly awkward kid, already hanging out with the most popular group (or what would become that). Hell, even with the teachers we got along way better than all the rest though we were the most hyper little sh*ts. 3 of my friends were teacher's kids.
9-12: Started doing gymnastics and football right before I turned 9. (proper football, with a round ball and by using my feet) Became pretty popular, even though I wasn't attractive. I was really f**king smart though.
13-14: Ronery nerdy semi-pro gamer. Yes, it was pretty bad. I got separated from my old friends, I had terrible acne and I was an awkward kid with a terrible hairdresser zo my hair always looked like crap. So ronery. Even though I managed to score a really hot girlfriend... She changed schools and I was ronery again. Waifu gone. Had internetrelationship. I knew I had turned into a very sad clown. Also my dark sense of humor + my nerdy face = YOU'RE A F**KIN PSYCHO MANG

cont.
15-16: Acne went away. All of it. During the summer break. It was as if God cleansed my face right before the first day of the new schoolyear. Must have been somewhere between masturbating and playing SOCOM online for hours at night. Because that's all I ever did back then. Also, I let my hair grow slightly longer and turns out I was a pretty attractive fella underneath that acne and awkward hair. Got reunited with my old friends and pretty much became one of the most popular kids in school.
Thanks to gymnastics I also had a pretty muscular body so I got attention from girls even female teachers started appreciating my intelligence more ever since I stopped looking like a plague-infested a**hole. Had about 6 girlfriends during that period, couldn't really figure out what to do with the newfound attention. Also, I started dressinga lot nicer.
Suddenly my dark humor got appreciated. Probably because it didn't come out of a greasy f**king face these days. I was really rude to some people though, I was a bit of an ass and somewhat of a bully to people that were "easy targets". I still can be an a**hole the poeple to this date, but only when it's called for.


cont.
15-16: Acne went away. All of it. During the summer break. It was as if God cleansed my face right before the first day of the new schoolyear. Must have been somewhere between masturbating and playing SOCOM online for hours at night. Because that's all I ever did back then. Also, I let my hair grow slightly longer and turns out I was a pretty attractive fella underneath that acne and awkward hair. Got reunited with my old friends and pretty much became one of the most popular kids in school.
Thanks to gymnastics I also had a pretty muscular body so I got attention from girls even female teachers started appreciating my intelligence more ever since I stopped looking like a plague-infested a**hole. Had about 6 girlfriends during that period, couldn't really figure out what to do with the newfound attention. Also, I started dressinga lot nicer.
Suddenly my dark humor got appreciated. Probably because it didn't come out of a greasy f**king face these days. I was really rude to some people though, I was a bit of an ass and somewhat of a bully to people that were "easy targets". I still can be an a**hole the poeple to this date, but only when it's called for.

cont.
17-18: Won prizes for athletics and two for scoring the highest on some subject out of all the students who graudated along with me. Teachers loved me. Girls from lower grades loved me long time.
I had only 1 girlfriend though, and that crap failed miserably. Mostly because the last 3 years of my life I was secretly in love with a girl and too afraid to do anything about it. So I figured ignoring it and not touching girls anymore was the way to go after a chain of short relationships and pretty much breaking hearts. That sucked a lot.
And sometimes, a spur of geekyness occured. But nevertheless, I was still with the top echelon. Some of the dark nerds really hated my guts though, along with a group that wanted to be like us. Guess they didn't get that they would have to stop being giant a**holes then. But I got along great with most people so I didn't really care.
Went to Barcelona with my friends and all of the hot girls for a week, we had an awesome time and sh*t was great.
And now in college I'm the silent hot guy whose friends all dropped out in their first year so I'm in law school now and too lazy to make contacts there. So I stick with my old friends even though I can't see em that often. I miss high school now. It was easy, I could do nothing at all all day and get high grades.
TL;DR : The better you look, the easier people will recognise your accomplishments and tell you you're fun to be with.

Elementary school was f**king amazing. I was always the genius, knew lots of words, big science geek, always won the slide races. Everyone loved me. My 5th grade boyfriend was the most popular boy in school, hurr.
6th grade I was an ugly little girl. Unibrow, chubbiness stopped being cute and started being gross. People started calling me goth and avoiding me cause I had long black hair and wrote poetry about World War II.
7th and 8th grade sucked. Fell in love with my best friend and she went all EWWWW THATS GROOOOSS on me. Started cutting and became anorexic. Finally got sort of attractive, though, and people thought my nihilism was, bah, interesting?
9th grade I got my first real boyfriend. That was a f**k yeah year. Got into a bunch of sh*t with the admin but all the teachers loved me cause I was super smart and made sure I never got into any real trouble, all the guys thought I was a babe, jammed with some of the older kids alot. Most of my friends were outside of school, though, and signifigantly older.
Went to Ghana for 10th grade. That was amazing.
11th and 12th grade sucked. Had just transfered to public school, and Everyone got mad when I told them where I was applying to (Cornell, Brown, Dartmouth) and what I did outside of school, blah blah. Got beat up a couple of times, eventually just learned to not talk at school.
Eh. It was pretty cool, come to think of it.

elementary school - moved twice within this time period so i didn't really have a lasting impression or anything i guess, my final elementary school was pretty chill and met my best friend up until this day and sh*t
middle school - begin social awkwardness, get chubby, have some friends in school but mostly one best friend
freshman-sophomore year hs - middle school part 2, sucked, don't remember a lot from this period because i had no life, still chubs
junior-senior year hs - get my sh*t together, lose chubbiness, translated shy nerdiness into academic/social success, still known as awkward nerd but exponentially more friends by graduation, first gf

1-9 years old - friends with cool kids
9-15 - rapid descent into loserdom, about 5-6 people i considered friends, barely if ever left the house to hang with them, incredibly lonely, did nothing all day except play vidya, and after 11 years old, fap
15 - found drugs and rapidly became relatively cool again
16- got addicted to drugs
17- smoking moar weed, less hard drugs
18- anonymous

what was your school life like?
for the ages of 12-14 I was the smart-ass everybody loved
14-17 I was the elitest who most people shared a dislike for, only had a small circle of friends and no 'allies' outside of that. spent most of my time trolling people irl.
feels sort of okay, but I'm totally forgettable

1-12 - Pretty awesome, very outgoing, loads of friends, but who isn't cool at this age.
13-15 - Changed schools, went to a ghetto ass middle school, didn't really fit in cause I was white, wasn't picked on or anything but only had a few bros I would hang out with and none went to my school, got laid once got some bj's etc., but didn't really do a whole lot sexually. Slowly became withdrawn and somewhat introverted
16 - early 17 - Ok so by now I'm kinda socially awkward, just in time for high school, f**kin a. So yeah, not much to say about these years, had like two friends.
17 - 18 - Not quite as socially awkward anymore, have a decent amount of friends and go out a lot, but I don't get laid fuuuuuuuu, lose like 40 pounds no more chub f**k yeah, too little too late though, high schools almost over.
19 - now - Starting to get more serious about working out, I have a pretty decent body now, going to College but commuted this past year so f**k that. Gonna live on campus next year and I can't wait.

malef** here.
5-10 I was the smart kid. 10-12 i was the cool smart kid, met the internetwebz. 12- girls liked me, math got hard, over lvl 70 on Runescape. 13-14 some girls liked me, cheated to pass, stopped leaving my room. 15- only a few emo and nerdy girls liked me (like 2 or 3), PARENTS OFFERED ME BADASS 15YO ANNIVERSARY GIFT TO COMPENSATE SISTER'S PARTY, ASK FOR NEW COMPUTER INSTEAD OF EUROPE TRIP, fall in love hopelessly with older girl, had to do extra work to pass 16 - still in love with older girl, MEET web, no one likes me, extra work. 17 - still in love hopelessly, dating some other loser chick

I was pretty lucky, though, 1/4 of my class (literally) are outcasts, so that makes us not really outcasts, you know? they all play dota and some lurk web, etc.

1st and 2nd grade
Super smart motherf**ker who everyone asked for help.
3rd-5th
Started getting lazy, not giving a f**k. Also became more of a pu**y.
6th-8th
F**king stupid weeaboo
9th & 10th
Weeaboo remnaints, became that one smart kid who was/is lazy as f**k
11th
found web, manned up, not much else
12th-now
discovered weed, got a girlfriend, feels good man

6-12 popular
12-14 hate all my classmates.
14-17 popular and smart.
17-21 very popular and smart.
graduate
21- unemployed, life sucks...

1-6 idk, lol
6-11 beaten regularly by sadistic jesus-freak stepmom
11-13 cant stop trying to killself
13 *PROZAC*
14-18 sex, drug, rock n' roll high school
18-24 air force
24-26 web

grammar school: boring mostly, but was also kind of annoying because class was pretty much total chaos with people beating on other kids, random yelling out of nowhere, etc.
high school: a little better than grammar school (at least there weren't constant fights and sh*t all the time). also, i didn't realize certain subjects could actually be challenging and engaging until high school (went to a p. good magnet school)
college: pretty terrible, actually. classes were way easier than in high school except this time they were filled with rich kids. way more drama than high school, too

Elementary School: I was the school freak that people just upped and decided they hated because I was a spineless polite person who'd roll over for anybody.
Middle School: I was a shut-in who was scared of those people who'd bully me.
Highschool: I f**king kicked ass. I said "F**K YOU AND YOUR OPINIONS" and suddenly, when nobody else mattered, everybody started looking up to me.
What the heck?

OP my school life was like yours.

Ages 6-8: Nerd, all my friends were boys. Played soccer, neopets, and runescape.
Age 9: Super popular. All new friends
Ages 10-12: Loser. Few friends. Hated everyone.
Age 13: My only good friend ever. Super depressed. Slept in school.
Ages 14-present: Loser, no friends, few aquaintances. Thank god for drugs.

Kindergarten - 1
Went to private school, hated sitting in chapel every Wednsday. Little nerdy.
1-5
Transferred to a public k-8 school. Put in all advanced classes and was a little nerd.
6-8
Class decided HOLY SH*T, WE DON'T LIKE YOU! Romanticized, stooped caring about actual acedemics and started drawing more.
9-12
Went to a public arts high school. Drew all day, got more into my academics. Co-captain of the debate team, yearbook staff, etc. Hung with the nerds and rockerf**s, but made friends with everyone. Pretty cool.

Elementary school - None of the other girls liked me except one or two girls who I was very close with. About half the guys were cool with me and I had a big circle of male friends.
Middle School - I had a good number of friends, wasn't necessarily popular. The people who didn't like me in elementary school just happened to be in all my elective classes and still picked on me when isolated from all the people who actually did like me.
High School - decently well known mostly for my art work, in all the high level classes, but had friends everywhere and knew at least half of the ~1600 student population. Wouldn't call myself popular, because I still had a limited number of close friends. Only a couple people had issues with me, and most of that came from elitist art student drama.

>high school
>known mostly for my artwork
ha

Preschool: have a buttload of fun... Playing by myself.
5-8: wander out of lessons and do my own thing. Mainly seeing how long I could hide in the cloak room before someone found me.
9-12: Read A LOT. Wander around playground wondering why nobody wants to play with me.
12-15: Ostracised and occasionally bullied for being nerdy. Lonely as f**k. Play lots of vidya.
15: have my first fight. No more bullying but otherwise the same until I left at 16
Feels bad man

1-7: that kid who is cool as f**k when you're in preschool
8-10: that quiet kid with no friends
10-12: the kid who keeps f**king up and cutting and trying to an hero
13-19: the smart kid who likes music and art
feels good man

elementary school - Was the cute little cookie cutter blond haired kid.
middle school - Didn't have a large group of friends, mainly talked to my fellow gamers but I never really stereotyped.
high school - Known to be pretty smart, while my 4.0 from elem/mid dropped to around a 3.0-3.2. After I moved to a new school in 10th grade it was a little rough at first, but by 11th grade I met a lot of new people in comparison to my other years. Also a lot of people known me to be smart while smoking a lot of weed. Delved into other drugs as well, started to get more into anthropology/psychology.


You sound f**king obnoxious. F**k you random hipster.

I'm not, just took a whole lot of art classes in school. It turns out Korean students who were forced to learn to paint since age 3 are very competitive by high school.

Elementary - Most popular in my school. Not joking. Prior to me moving to another state, I was very outgoing and athletic in addition to being funny and smart. I'm sure many of you will doubt this, so believe what you will.
Middle - Social groups start to form but I don't slow down much for the first year. Then I move to another state into a sh*tty school district and become basically unknown and occasionally get in pissing contests with various people since the social groups in this area were VERY divided and hostile to each other. Stop playing football, tenis, basketball, and volleyball. Stop running track. Play one more year of soccer before realizing that this new area is sh*t for sports and they mix people from 5 different grades in order to actually get enough for a soccer league. Stop all physical activity and start putting on weight.
High school - Move back to where I used to live and discover that most of the people I used to know are now either a**holes/bitches or just generally don't talk to me. Become good friends with about half of my class (the upper half, mostly) but never really go out and do anything with any of them. Constantly make up BS excuses to disguise the fact that I'm now about 30 pounds overweight and really out of shape and just sit around playing video games or dicking around on the internet.

I feel like I didn't exist to anyone but my friends. By the time high school was over I was down to 1 friend. Now I'm invisible to everyone.

reminds me of my nonasian, male friend... he took a f**kton of art classes growing up. freshman year at UVA, he was allowed to take senior level art classes after they saw his portfolio.

I haven't had a friend since I was 10 or so. I'm ugly, I can't speak properly. I'm not very good at anything. Raised dirt poor by an incompetent single mother and a string of abusive boyfriends. I was always just smart and normal enough so that people didn't feel bad to reject and make fun of me, and teachers never cared. In my 3 years of high school combined I probably uttered less words than many people did in a single day. 2 teachers sent me to the guidance counselor, one claiming I might be suicidal even though I never did anything that might lead people to think I was and that was absolutely the last thing I wanted people to think.
My mother also made no effort to instill the value of education in me, made no effort to do homework with me, often didn't give me lunch or gave me a horrible and socially unacceptable lunch, and often times didn't send me to school.
Oh well it could have been much worse.

Welp...
k-5 I was the lovable nice kid
5-7 I was that a**hole who insulted the bully
8-10 I was the quiet kid who stopped getting picked on when he threw a fat red neck into the lockers
11-12 I was the stoner who was really funny but also really deep.
Yeah. That was nice.

DAMMIT. I JUST TYPED MY LIFE STORY TO SHARE ON anonymous, AND IT DIDN'T GO THROUGH! I KNEW I SHOULD'VE COPY AND PASTED IT TO WORD!
10/10
WOULD RAGE AGAIN

DAMMIT. I JUST TYPED MY LIFE STORY TO SHARE ON anonymous, AND IT DIDN'T GO THROUGH! I KNEW I SHOULD'VE COPY AND PASTED IT TO WORD!
10/10
WOULD RAGE AGAIN

Samef** here. Cooled down.
Basically, I was a black kid that was smart, witty, creative, witty, and befriended a wide variety of people, I had many crushes on girls (most of em failed), I'm now in college and a liberal f**k-up

12-13: anime/video game fa**ot, hung out primarily with this fatass who took the bus home with me
13-14: punk rock/skater phase, at least better than anime fa**ot
15-16: emo phase... f**k
16-18: came into my own, became a normal, well-adjusted member of society. the high school years treated me pretty well i guess. now i'm in university and i'm turning 19 in a week.

12-14: poor white kid, like rap music because I lived in the projects. couldn't afford to dress wigger, but I would have if could
15-17: mysticism, psuedoscience, wannabe intellectual phase, ugh
18-20: went to trade school, realized I aint much of sh*t, some other stuff happened, meh
21: army strong

K- 5: Bookworm. I didn't necessarily like schoolwork, it was tedious as sh*t, but f**k I read a lot of science books. I was(and still am) curious about f**king everything
Middle School(6-8): New school, a few kids from my elementary school came to, only really friends with one. Made some new friends, was pretty shy, tried to be nice to everyone but got picked on a lot. Sh*t didn't really phase me, and I learned to not take sh*t from shortf**s. Pinnacle of my academic achievement.
9th Grade: F**king gay. Same school, but for high school they double the grade size to 100. All 50 of us are actually starting to gel when 50 new kids show up and all try to assert themselves at the top. I was a tall skinny kid who wasn't good at sports, so naturally I was a target.
10th Grade: Sophomore year you get to be lazy, so I was. I pretty started my senior slide here.
11th Grade: Hard as sh*t, close friends with only a few kids, dont really hang out with anyone from this school, a couple from elementary school. One introduced me to bee and web.
12th Grade: Pretty cool, for the most part. The senior only teachers are really cool, and the school year winds down when we get accepted to college. Go on a sweet senior retreat, and or grade comes together. Go on a 2 week service to Peru before graduation, have a blast, graduate, do senior week for a day, chill at home for the summer(highlight was ION), go to college for a semester and drop out.
And here I am

K- 5: Bookworm. I didn't necessarily like schoolwork, it was tedious as sh*t, but f**k I read a lot of science books. I was(and still am) curious about f**king everything
Middle School(6-8): New school, a few kids from my elementary school came to, only really friends with one. Made some new friends, was pretty shy, tried to be nice to everyone but got picked on a lot. Sh*t didn't really phase me, and I learned to not take sh*t from shortf**s. Pinnacle of my academic achievement.
9th Grade: F**king gay. Same school, but for high school they double the grade size to 100. All 50 of us are actually starting to gel when 50 new kids show up and all try to assert themselves at the top. I was a tall skinny kid who wasn't good at sports, so naturally I was a target.
10th Grade: Sophomore year you get to be lazy, so I was. I pretty started my senior slide here.
11th Grade: Hard as sh*t, close friends with only a few kids, dont really hang out with anyone from this school, a couple from elementary school. One introduced me to bee and web.
12th Grade: Pretty cool, for the most part. The senior only teachers are really cool, and the school year winds down when we get accepted to college. Go on a sweet senior retreat, and or grade comes together. Go on a 2 week service to Peru before graduation, have a blast, graduate, do senior week for a day, chill at home for the summer(highlight was ION), go to college for a semester and drop out.
And here I am

also: planning on enlisting either 11B or Marines.

12-13 Weird Foreigner
14 Awkward Foreigner
15-16 Got friends, realized people are mostly scumbags
17-18 Hung out. Awesome. 3.2 GPA.
19 Army strong
20 Army strong FROM THE SKY

seems to me that everybody here thinks they got it together and they were cool their senior year.
PROTIP: No.

8-12: Accepted by the popular kids, to some extent. Didn't have much sense of self. Pretty thoughtless.
12-15: Rejections, embarrassments and laze put me at a disadvantage. Perpetual feeling of shame. Fell behind the curve.
15-18: A couple epiphanies in freshman year of high school, and the summer before it, served to rebirth me, in a way. Learned to think critically, began to explore non-fictional literature and music, developed some idea of what to do with my future. Still negligent of the present, though, as far as school and employment and relationships went.
A major handicap was the fact that I went to the same schools with the same people for elementary, middle and high school, so my poor reputation with them followed me pretty f**king closely. I don't know why I never had the mind to go away from them.

6-10: popular, showing early signs of promise, smart and very, very fast
10-13: slightly less popular; adapted to new school quite well; remained at the top of my classes; established myself as a fine sporting performer
14-16: captain of the school cricket and football team; ran the 100m (11.2!) and jumped the long jump for the school; won awards at county and district level for the football; intelligent; did well with females; won the headteachers award for outstanding contribution to the school and left with good grades
16-18: girlfriend (and best friend!) died; quit all sports; drifted apart from all of my friends; concentrated more on academics; finished college with straight A's
18-20: top ten (five according to THE TIMES) uni in the world; can no longer make friends; haven't held another human being in about three years; thoroughly miserable, depressed and ocasionally suicidal -- the only thing that stops me from killing myself is that i know it would destroy my parents.
Some day, things will be better. That is my hope. Today, everything is fine. That is my illusion.

5-9 payed attention in class, aced everything. Had a small circle of friends.
9-11 started growing constantly sad, not knowing why. Started sleeping through class, A's and B's. Friends diminished.
11-14 despair and pain took over, put on false mask so no one would notice. Friend circle expanded.
14-16 school lost money, many many students left. Only had 2 friends left at school. Lost contact with all others. Broke down in sadness as my best friend walked in, she felt sorry. Unfortunately I hate seeing people worry about me, and I had a crush on her too.
17-18 both friends left, asked my best friend to get away from me and forget about me. Breaks her heart. oh well.
18-21(present) as I left for college out of state, I remark to everyone I've always hated them, and to get away from me, all I bring is sadness knowing me. Rush to car, drive away. I am alone, I don't talk to anyone unless I have too. I just do schoolwork and regular work. I spend my free time staring at the ceiling or listening to the same song over and over. I don't have a life worth living, but I feel I don't have a death worth dying.
Flame me for being a pu**y, goth, or emo person or whatever you call people like me. I don't give a damn.

I'm not gonna waste your time with some intricate list.
I've always been the type who wakes up, goes to school, comes home, and surfs the web until midnight.
I don't think that'll ever change.

1-18 awkward.
18-20 funny and sociable
If I hadn't met the right people I would be a superf**kup by now

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